2007-07-29 - 11:40 p.m.
you don't wanna believe it but your heart's screaming the truth at you. yet you turn a deaf ear to it, however futile it may be, and continue in your delusion, clouding your common sense with 'what if's and 'maybe's. the world's crashing down around you and you hide behind the closed doors while your heart bleeds in frustration. you feel a tinge of sadness but you refuse to let it consume you. instead, you flail your arms about pathetically, hoping to catch that last sparkle of hope that's just out of your reach, just shimmering into that limitless sky, just away from you. you scramble about, searching for some life although your heart's teling you it's over. you ignore it and tell yourself, "nothing ever falls apart", but your heart's being wrenched out because it will not be lied to. you deserve the physical pain and you know it. "i'll return to you, " your heart says, "but only if you promise to suffer with me." a harsh but inevitable fate. the sky suddenly seems darker than usual. the silence becomes more dominant. the depression more imminent. but you're lucky that you have the freedom to choose.
so now i can tell you this. that i know i can do better and that you're not worth my time. thus, i choose to do my KI essay.
